I am YOU ....

I loved Cinderella, the day I saw her for the first time. I can’t remember my age though, but I remember the cover of the book. The beautiful gown…pretty eyes and definitely the most appealing shoe I have ever seen after that.
I read the story countless times. I loved Cinderella because she taught me to ‘Hope.’
Hope that one fine day I would live happily ever after!
Back then, life was so simple and classified. Classified into black and white, classified into good and bad. It was mostly about praying and playing smile emoticon

I changed my ambition almost every day.
I often wanted to be a nun but sometimes I wanted to be an actress or a model as well. I also remember about imagining how I would look dressed up like a lawyer. By the time I could figure out what I wanted I was grown up.
Ask me now, I am still not sure. May be a writer someday or maybe I want to dance once like never before. In one line……..I don’t know what I would do tomorrow!!

But ask me about ‘Today,’
Today is a busy day! I do everything under the sun and the moon.

I play different roles….some out of choices and some out of chances.
I am terrified between the fear of ‘What if everything changes’ and ‘What if nothing changes.’ 

There are nights when I lay awake plotting the easiest way to kill myself. The next day morning the newly launched lip-color is all I need to start living for.

I find it easy to cry under the shower and exciting to smile to the sunrise.
I won a few hearts, broke some in the name of collateral damage. There are days I spend heartlessly loving no one. And then there are days I am madly in love, as if I can’t breathe if he doesn't kiss.

I say ‘Yes’ to desire and ‘No’ to sex. I have won almost every battle between the soul and the body. But whenever I lost…I died a little inside. I am busy between dying and living!!

My life is a mosaic of multiple wrongs and a handful of rights. I have abandoned the color white long back…….grey is the new me.

There is God in my heart and a little devil in my head. My heart is a volcano. What erupts…depend on which cord you strike!

Who am I? Come closer……a little more. Hold my face in your palms…….raise my chin up. Look at me.
I am YOU!!

PS : I still love Cinderella…I have Hope wink emoticonF