The Dark ... And the darkness !!!

That was a dark night... She was feeling the void, kept staring at phone but all she could hear was the crystal clear silence. Darkness started dominating the hopes, that loud silence was killing her. Fate was playing some serious games, which she could not understand.

This was one of those unusual nights when she wanted to find answers to few open ended questions of her life. Why me? , How could he do that to me?, Is this what God planned?.... Were a few powerful thoughts which ruled her that night. Eyes on phone, and mind struggling with thoughts that kept bouncing back and fro. Those all unshared thoughts needed a vent, all those hidden emotions wanted to erupted like a volcano. She lost touch with smile, laughter and composure for that night. Those five years had left her with a moist pillow each morning, a strange world and lot of unanswered questions.

Six months had passed since that last phone call from a different continent approached her, just to inform "It's not working out and I can't drag this further. I have someone else in life and I feel happy with her". Entire journey of those five years flashed in front of her eyes, she stood choked, mind completely blank and senses numb. " Hello... Are you there?? ... Hello".  "Aaee.. (Gulp)... Haa..(gulp)... ". Her mind and body lost the sync, mind needed an outburst and body just gave up. Her flamboyance was over, all she remembered was those two sentences she heard on phone. After a sleepless week, she called him back, the call remained unanswered. Her repeated attempts could not  alter the outcome. She kept waiting for a call back.... And still does. This probably was fastest way one can travel from clouds to ground.

Five years that revolved just around him, with everything else taken up a back seat. Just a phone call was not at all fair idea to leave so many questions unanswered. There is another erection which is more rather most important for a man to have, an erect spine. The power with which people hurt us is directly proportional to their closeness to us.  In this case, there was no closeness, he almost resided in her.

It was difficult... Very difficult to walk ahead without that hand which she held for years, it was killing to cry every night without that shoulder, it was terrible to break down when there was no body to hug you and say " everything will be fine ". It was a toll on almost everything. It wasn't easy at all to face parents who were all set to decide on the wedding date. She was stranded, still she moved on... When you are on foot , you come close to so many things which otherwise you would just pass. She too realised life is all about living before you are dead, gone time could not be recovered, life can be lived with high density.

Being positive does not mean she did not miss that warmth, neither did it mean that she accepted everything that happened.  There are nights when she still craves for one last chance to speak to him and say it all ... The dark nights... Both in and around her.