Just Living it up !!!

With days rolling into months and months gliding into years......I realized the freedom of growing perfectly imperfect.
Yes, I get angry seldom...ahh...sometimes......ok....like quite frequently. And my phone suffers, by now it might have taken some five hundred and forty three leaps and bounces on the ground.
No.......I have never tried counting numbers in the reverse order...
In fact I have stopped doing any kind of anger management and my friends have now almost mastered the act of ' Ridhi management wink emoticon'
I no longer have a euphoric feel in challenging my self-control. After a whole day on fruits and salads I at times feast on rice just before I go to sleep!!
I had been trying to get back to shape for the last five years and trust me I am still trying.
The enthusiasm is at the peak when my eyes pop out on Deepika's waistline but once I am out at the interval I don’t forget saying at the counter...." Bhaiya, Popcorn mein butter zyada dalna .."
I shop because I am depressed and then I become depressed looking at the bills…and then I need to shop again!!
It’s a never ending cycle and I am yet to figure out which came first……the depression or the shopping???
The filter between the head and the tongue has become dysfunctional, so I say what I think without thinking what others will think. Though I sometimes try to do otherwise…..but I fail miserably!!
Coming to savings, by now I have learnt that it can never fit in my world. There is not a single month end that I felt rich, but as long as I have friends it did not matter. So instead of saving money and compromising on wishes I preferred in saving friends wink emoticon
Money, success, fame………I am no longer in the rat race anymore. It started at childhood…I did not have a choice then but now I do! So sometimes when I am just about to reach the finish-line…..I stop, turn back and prefer watching others reaching there. 
I fail.
I try and at times I fail again.
Sometimes I give up……..sometimes I keep trying. There is no hard and fast rule of how many times I need to hold on. I let go when I feel it’s no worth.
I am no Napoleon and neither Alexander the great…..I am at absolute ease!!
I am here not to win, I am here just to chill and live.
PS : My first post thru my new Macbook :)

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